Mental Health While traveling

So yes.. I have been diagnosed with general anxiety and depression disorder. Supposedly, this has been going on ever since I was a little girl. I use to worry about every little thing possible. But the severe depression and anxiety started more recently, like this past summer. I’m not going to get into a lot of details but I was sexually harassed at my job and my life took a complete 180. I was scared to leave my house, let alone my bed. I was scared someone was going to touch me inappropriately again. I was embarrassed and ashamed of myself and thought that I did something to make this happen to me. I know now that isn’t the case..

However, one thing saved me. And that one thing was travel. And adventure. Traveling made me go out of my comfort zone. It allowed for me to try new things and make me come out of my shell again. Traveling got me to meet new people and when I was put in a new setting it got me to talk again. Be able to use my voice and be heard and have normal conversations again.

It’s kind of strange. The one thing that saved me for spiraling down a deep hole was getting up and going. Going where ever my mind took me. My trip to Mexico this past summer had me worried. I was afraid of getting on the plane, I was afraid of the people I might encounter, I was afraid that the one thing I loved most in the world was taken away from me. That wasn’t the case at all. When I went back in the airport for the first time after my situation everything fell back into place. I felt a sort of ease that I haven’t felt in a long time. Like I said in my previous posts, the people I met were beyond amazing. They were the most genuine people. They were kind and watched out for me. I felt like someone finally cared. And while I was on that trip, I felt nothing. No depression. No anxiety. No bad thoughts. No worry wort Payton anymore. It was an incredible feeling.

I believe that travel benefits a person’s mental health. You become your true self and you get to enhance your personality. You get more than just a happy feeling. The excitement and feelings you get during and after your trip aren’t just all. You get that feeling before, you know that you are going to be traveling soon and it gives you that added push to get through tough situations. I think the best thing about travel is it gets you to make and create strong relationships. Traveling puts you in those situations to enhance not only yourself but other’s around you as well. Having people around for you to get through tough situations while traveling will make dealing with situations back in reality, easier.

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I’m a Beach Girl

If any of you actually read my posts then you can tell that I am such a beach girl. If I go on vacation to somewhere that isn’t the beach I get a little upset. Is that bad? In my head I’m like, “I belong on the beach”….

This is my moto.. if anyone makes me upset I say “beach please”. Sorry that’s inappropriate but I need to remember that I don’t to waste my time on people when I could just be at the beach. The beach has gotten me through a lot to be honest… I never feel depressed or anxious while I’m at the beach. There is something about it, it’s calming and brings me peace. The waves crashing against the shore have that sound that bring me new emotions and feelings. When I’m at the beach I feel connected with the water, the bright sand & sun, and all the animals that come with it. I’m connected to a deeper meaning. Nature. Living and nonliving. The palm trees have a beauty that is apart of me. I love the beach. The beach will forever be my first love.

“When anxious, uneasy and bad thoughts come, I go to the sea, and the sea drowns them out with its great wide sounds, cleanses me with its noise, and imposes a rhythm upon everything in me that is bewildered and confused.”
Rainer Maria Rilke

You never feel bothered at the beach. There could be numerous people around you and you would feel like you were the only one there. The beach gives me opportunities I never thought were possible. When I stand and face the waters and look out at the horizon I feel like I can achieve anything. Who thought a body of water would be someone’s biggest motivator?

Getting my daily dose of Vitamin D at the beach will keep me happy. I’m kind of like the saying, “an apple a day keeps the doctor away”. Except for me, it’s being out in the sun at the beach. I feel healthy and motivated when I’m out in the sun. It’s rejuvenating. It’s funny though, I don’t like being in the sun at home because it’s too hot and there is nothing to do except bake in the sun and there are no gorgeous views to look at. But… when I’m at the beach, it’s a different story. I will be outside from 9AM to 5PM.

The ocean is my own personal mediation device. I am me when I am at the sea. My emotions flee and my head becomes clear. I believe that the ocean speaks to us, and with how we look at it, the ocean could resemble a deeper meaning. The ocean is what we want it to be.

I hope one day you understand the deeper meaning of mother nature and the beauty of a beach. It’s my place, my happy place. I love it.